Wednesday, August 28, 2019

The Way We Were...



This year has been an especially difficult one for me and my babies; we lost Mommy Cat and Calle within 2 weeks of each other and my home is not the same...Halle, Sukki and I are still deeply grieving and while we have tried to get used to our "new normal" these last 5 months, we are all obviously still dealing daily with the pain of these huge losses in our lives...I have decided to take this opportunity to inform you guys that I will continue our blog until our 10th Blogoversary on January 14, 2020, posting daily as I always have, but after our celebration of sharing a decade of daily posts, I will only post occasionally...My heart is just not in it anymore after so much loss...I thank each and every one of you that have shared our journey and hope you will continue to visit; I have made many friends through this blog and feel very grateful for your kindness over the years...For me, this blog has been a love letter of photos for these sweet souls that I have been lucky enough to cherish as their Mommy.


10.23.04-04.04.19
Calle's death was so unexpected, she passed away from heart failure a week after being diagnosed with a heart murmur, 3 days after a specialist told me she had 6 months-2 years...She was my special sweetheart, my heart kitty and her death truly devastated me and her sisters.


Calle was every kitty's best friend, they all adored her; Halle and Sukki have both lost over 2 lbs. hurting over the loss of their sisters...While Calle was the glue that held them together, Halle and Sukki are slowly starting to get closer.


09.01.00-03.19.19
Mommy Cat was such a beloved member of our family and her passing was extra difficult for me because I made the difficult decision to help her to the Bridge...She shared a special soul mate love with Daddy Cat and they created a tight family bond with their son, Jax, while outdoor cats; her grief over losing her son and later, Daddy Cat, was deep and long lasting...Her loss was very difficult for me and all 3 girls as she had chosen to live with us in the house after about a year of mourning her Daddy Cat.


05.02.00-06.12.16
My sweet, sweet boy, Daddy Cat loved his family with a fierce and deep commitment as their protector during their lives as feral cats...He mourned his son with Mommy Cat for many months and I feel it made their bond even stronger; his death years later changed Mommy Cat forever...He was a gentle, loving boy with those he loved, including me and the indoor girls.


This truly comforts me as I have never witnessed a love as pure and deep as these two shared for 16 years together...They were truly devoted soul mates.


05.13.01-07.09-07
Jax was a total sweetheart; I am so grateful I was able to witness the loving family dynamic between Jax and his parents (he had Daddy Cat's coloring and Mommy Cat's body type=a perfect combination of those two!)...His death at such a young age was a tremendous loss to his devoted parents and to me; he was so deeply loved and cherished by us all.


10.07.84-09.18.04
My first real baby and such a deep love, Nikki is the reason I have adored, cherished, loved and treasured every single kitty that has entered my life since falling in love with her...I have always been an animal lover and had beloved animals all my life, but she truly awakened a profound love and gratefulness in my soul because while she was my first baby as an adult, she became the first animal that made me a real  "Mommy".


Tom was a neighborhood cat that befriended Mommy Cat and Daddy Cat about 2 years after Jax's death; I got him fixed and yearly shots, but he was in great shape and well fed when I met him, so I knew he belonged to someone in our old neighborhood...He was loved.

21 comments:

Poppy Q said...

We totally understand - after writing and posting for years, the loss of your cats must hurt. Thank for sharing, we have enjoyed seeing their adventures over the years and know how much they mean to you. How lucky they are to have lived in your beautiful home and to be so loved. It has made our days brighter to see their lovely faces.

Julie and Poppy Q
xxx

Summer at sparklecat.com said...

Lots of purrs to you - this has been such a tough year for you, Sukki and Halle. I totally understand why you want to wind down the blog in a few months. Just don't totally be a stranger, okay?

Mickey's Musings said...

We also understand how you feel and we agree with Summer...don't be a stranger.
Losing beloved kitties is very hard. WE still miss our sweet Tillie and Tiger and Treasure.
Purrs and hugs for you <3
Purrs,Georgia,Julie and JJ

Zoolatry said...

We have loved them all, and you know that I love you also. And will beyond your time of closing the doors to Jacqueline's Cat House ...
We change, life changes ... needs and wants change, it is the cycle for
all of us.
Friends are forever ... love, Ann

Nina said...

I understand you wanting to take a break from the blog as you have devoted every day posting on it. I have loved your blog from the moment you started it, and I loved seeing your beautiful girls and Daddy. I am deeply saddened by your loss of your beautiful babies. Calle had such a good soul, so sweet and beautiful too. Her heart was full of love. Mommy was so precious, loving and such a sweetheart. I have enjoyed seeing her and Daddy cat together and I know they are together again forever. We will never forget our babies that we loved as they are a part of our hearts. That includes Mommy and Daddy’s baby Jax. That also includes your beautiful Nikki, who taught you how to deeply love her, and to care for Tom the neighborhood cat who you tried to take care of too. Love is the most powerful thing in our lives and love never dies. We will miss seeing Jacqueline‘s cat house daily, and after sometime away hope you will return periodically. I know you, Sukki and Halle are still grieving. It will take quite some time to adjust, but you will never forget because love is eternal. Good luck to you and like Ann said we are friends forever. ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

The Island Cats said...

I understand what you are going through. It's hard losing one baby...but two so close together. I too find it difficult to blog, to be cheerful and happy, after losing Wally. I'm glad you will still post if even only occasionally. Hugs to you on this day of remembrance. ~Island Cat Mom

Marg said...

We have so enjoyed your blog and all the kitties but totally understand about how hard it is to continue. We also are so sorry about all you losses. We miss all of them. Take care.

Laila and Angel Minchie said...

Such a beautiful and loving tribute, Jacqueline. Totally understand where you are coming from with blogging. We use to blog every day but it's just not the same with Minchie gone. We just adored Mommy and Daddy Cat and Calle miss them but love you sharing old photos of them. Just know we will always be friends and will hold their memories dear to our heart.

Laila and Mom Peggy

Fur Everywhere said...

I am so sorry for the losses you've experienced over the years. It never gets any easier when we lose our precious friends. <3

The Florida Furkids said...

Beautiful post. We understand how you feel about blogging after having so many losses.

The Florida Furkids

Timmy Tomcat said...

We love following the family and send our purrs and prayers of support. It is so hard to lose a fur who has filled your heart with love. That the love stays and lasts forever is our tribute to those who gave us their hearts. With this, in time, we lose the pain and fill with fond reminisce. We hope you continue to share with us and hope you will weekly. Purrs

Rene said...

I'm sorry your heart isn't in blogging anymore. We understand.

Gemini and Ichiro said...

What a beautiful tribute to so many cats you have loved. We were sad when Daddy Cat passed and even sadder when Mommy Cat joined him. We did know Jax, though. Callie--well, Callie was just heart breaking because it was so unexpected. Purrs to you.

Andrea and the Celestial Kitties said...

You have been blessed with so many wonderful kitties! The hardest part of being a cat parent is losing them.. they never live long enough.

We understand about having a hard time posting. We have had that too. love and hugs to all of you from all of us!

Cathy Keisha said...

We certainly know how you were feeling, having lost our autumn and Nicky within a week of each other. We are also debating ending the blog after our 10th Blogoversary which will be next month. Who knows? Thanks for sharing your heart with these kitties and sharing them with us. They'll always be with you and live in your heart.

Cat and DOG Chat With Caren said...

I can't imagine how you had to feel losing 2 pets in just a couple of weeks. My heart goes out to you((((hugs)))

catladymac said...

We thank you so much for sharing your beautiful family with us. Purrs.

pilch92 said...

Beautiful tribute to all your angels. I can understand why your heart wouldn't be into blogging after so much loss. XO

Melissa, Mudpie and Angel Truffles (Mochas, Mysteries and Meows) said...

Purrs to you today as you remember your precious babies.

meowmeowmans said...

Thank you for sharing all of your beloved fur babies with us all these years, Jacqueline. We, too, have loved them as if they were our own, and we are grateful for them, and for your ongoing friendship. Sending you love, hugs, and gentle purrs.

Tama-Chan, Benny, Vidock, Violette, Ollie, Heloise, Momo, Ryu said...

It is so hard, as the losses mount, to carry on blogging and finding smiles in the midst of so many tears. We have suffered terrible losses ourselves over the past months and we will never stop missing those who are gone. But we go on because we want life to be the winner, and it is those who are left who make us smile.

Purrs, woofs, neighs and hugs,
Everyone at The Poupounette